So I have dived into the dating world via dating apps. It is difficult for me given the horror of how my last relationship ended. But I seriously do not want to give that situation or person any more of my time or energy. It is also difficult because I read people really well in… Continue reading Dating and Dating Apps
There is something about living alone I like. Must be the introvert in me. I think it maybe it is an interesting idea that everyone should live alone at some time in their lives. Being as I have a disability I am dependent on my support system for many things. But also living along creates… Continue reading Living Alone
This prompt found on the Daily Om about when or if we ever had conflicting loyalties in our lives. I am exceptionally loyal to my loved ones: my partner (when I had one), my friends and my family. And I will defend any of them who are in my life, no matter what. I may not like… Continue reading Reflections: Conflicting Loyalties
This prompt found on the Daily Om is about reminiscing. There is nothing wrong with nostalgia as long as we don't get fixated on the past with rose coloured glasses. But it's fine to reflect on times in your life you remember fondly. Or specific memories even that make you feel good. Our brain is awesome at… Continue reading Reflections: Nostalgia, relationships and boundaries
This prompt found on the Daily Om is about all sorts of beginnings from starting over to new hobbies and experiences tried. Start Over Sometimes in life we have to let a lot of things go and start fresh. I think some people may find this more difficult as they get older because they feel… Continue reading Reflections: New Beginnings
How do I feel I have contributed to society? Ponderings based on Daily Om prompt from 'A Year of Writing to Uncover the Authentic Self'' It is a massive struggle when you have a disability to feel like you are contributing at all to society. Mostly because society wants you to be Productive in a… Continue reading Reflections: Contributions
Ponderings based on Daily Om This question posed in A Year of Writing to Uncover the Authentic Self on the Daily Om is a good one for different parts of your life. You can ask it again and again and get different answers. But to know what you feel is missing in your life to… Continue reading Reflections: What is missing?
I find myself reflecting on work and career lately because I have neither due to being on disability. And I would love financial security and stability. And then when I have the slightest urge to try something my body reminds that is a very bad idea. I love working. Because I love constant mental challenges… Continue reading Reflections: Work
So I went to the SPCA here and adopting a cat named Peter. He is so cute with his big cheeks and sad eyes. And I think it is those eyes that made me compelled to adopt him. I am thinking of changing his name to Theodore. Is that better than Peter? No idea, but… Continue reading My new cat
I have moved into my own place. And actually, I don't recall ever living on my own. Not without roommates. Not literally by myself. I can't say that I mind it really. It is peaceful. And I control the vibe. I also control the cooking which I suppose I will likely regret. I'm not the… Continue reading New Flat
I haven't dated for over 20 years so I really have no concept of online dating. I could ask my ex since he never really stopped dating among other things. But, well, I definitely was monogamous and clueless to online dating. Clueless to flirting. Clueless to dating overall now. My aunt walked me though some… Continue reading Being single now and the idea of dating
One of my weirdest foibles is that I have a real distaste...okay, fear, of mirrors. And I know that is a weird one to have. I will allow mirrors in the bathroom. I will not allow a mirror anywhere else in the house. Not ever. I Do Not Like Them So I googled fear of… Continue reading Fear of mirrors: catoptrophobia
To be honest with you, my life has been a real shitshow since 2018. There has not been one aspect of my life that hasn't been affected in this span of time. 2022 is really no different. It sure ended on a crappy note. I have never had such a horrible Christmas before. And I… Continue reading Well, this year is done, thankfully. Bring it, 2023
So I took a picture of my brilliant purple hair, and I caught this image: Throat Chakra? There was light coming in from the window that was creating a sort of cool effect and I think that is the rainbow there. But what is weird is that circle within a circle on my throat there.… Continue reading I found my throat Chakra?
As you know if you read a few posts down, due to my health I had to close my larger chronic illness niche blog. It was just too hard to sustain with any consistency at all. Pretty much the same deal with everything really. But I didn't mention I haven't really been able to read… Continue reading I miss fiction writing
I know chronic pain. I know it far too well. And the thing about pain is that it kills you slowly but doesn't actually kill you. There is no damage to be seen by anyone. Even if you are screaming on the inside no one can see a thing on the outside. It is nothing… Continue reading The decline in health and fear of the unknown
I killed my blog Brainlessblogger.net. I blogged about the experience of living and coping with chronic pain... for so long I don't even remember how long it has been. I remember I made my own website in html, then actual template blogs came out and I moved to them, to Blogger and then to WordPress.… Continue reading The death of a blog
My boyfriend and I went to Waterton National Park for a few days. We have never been there before and the area is beautiful. Sort of having a disability issue though It seems like an excellent place for hiking but with chronic pain I don't exactly make much of a hiker. I usually do go… Continue reading Waterton National Park
365 Questions, One Page Per Day: A One Year Self-Discovery Journal Day 90: Write down three things you do to train your authentic self expression I think the only thing that has ever constrained my authentic self was my professional career because of society's ideas of what a professional woman in the role ought to… Continue reading 356 Days of Questions: the authentic self
365 Questions, One Page Per Day: A One Year Self-Discovery Journal Day 87: What is your favourite way to deal with boredom? And what are three better ways? Well, I am not someone who has a problem with boredom. I am someone who has a problem with too many hobbies. And I'm also someone who… Continue reading 365 Days of questions: Bored?
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